Reading psychology, self-help, new age, occult, and various materials based in this have really brought my awareness to a level I feel transcends words. I notice the more I journal and reflect the more awareness of pattern recognition I can anticipate and act towards the highest thought. I was journaling last year around this time and there was a sub-conscious belief that I could only journal when in a uncomfortable, hard, sad, or negative state. When I started having really positive days it felt pointless to journal, because words only limited it so I stopped. This time I recognize the balance which needs to be upheld because that over-positivity ended up leaving me imbalanced, which is 'opposame' as overly negative. So continuing to write about my extremely fresh thoughts and unique streams that were flowing from my self were phenomenal. Just busting the whole psychological perspective fallacies PHYSIOLOGY USUALLY BOILS DOWN TO AN ASSUMPTION, All and all it is a great little journey to finally recognize this physiology paradigm running commonly on the planet.
I'm really starting to recognize my attatchments, anger, greed, ego, and lust in new forms and layers that I need to clear, recognize I need some more left-brain activity, structure, mathematic, practical preparation. I find that I will set out to do something in thought but my actions will not exactly follow even now I was thinking I would do much more or less than I was aware I would/could do, sometime I will just stop a chore, healthy habits, or just relaxing mid-swing and do the opposite action and sometimes passionately. I’ve been struggling with health, nutrition, and time management. To balance these three aspects of my life is slowly becoming a priority, good thing I checked a book from the library to assist with this I believe it’s called 360 living by Sayen Ji.
Went to pick up a suit from the mall today and I had fun goofing off with my cousins and I got into a conversation with a girl from Israel who was living here for one year and she was telling me how it wasn’t that bad as the news was covering it and she gave me some lotion in my hand. I also purchased at the mall books-a-million meet your soul by Elisa Romeo, but they had a ton-loads of books that I knew of but this book was in the new age section which made me nervous when I heard new age which implies dogmatism like all the major religions. I am continuing my experience of looking at everyone as points light in the brow of each person I could remember this practice on.
So as I was going through the mall I had a couple points when I was looking at habits that I partake in every so often and I walk into the tobacco store and there was COMPLETE COGNITIVE dissonance it’s like they wanted me to get out of there as quickly as possible and I did aikido style to let them sit in their own judgment energy. The next habit was GameSTOP it’s called this for a reason! As I was walking through the mall feeling like infinity embodied.
Got home walked Cooper and just recognizing we are no time beings and need to hammer this in pretty much in perpetuity. Really need to set aside a space strictly for meditation/contemplation to really get a good momentum going. I will be receiving this tomorrow and very timely which I am grateful for, going to need this momentum to knock out this synchronistic studying is becoming complex, arduous, and time consuming have to practically create sacred space.
Maybe going to the beach soon so I will be in a more anabolic state of co-creation is what I’m anticipating just a lot of affirmations, revocations, and unity consciousness remembrance.
Thanks for listening guys!