While acting, I would see programs that are so deeply ingrained in my psyche. By programs, I mean deep series of thoughts,feelings, and actions one identifies with themselves. Or when expecting one outcome but actually experiencing anunsatisfactory outcome. I have times where I'm blindsided by symptoms of deep issues that have not been dealt with properly. Family issues that I'm dealing with internally are taking longer than expected but I know it is the right way. This makes me feel frustrated, overwhelmed, like I'm supposed to spontaneously raise my awareness so quickly or stop what I'm doing in a series of actions and break a cycle of events to allow solutions to come in view.