Took some time yesterday to apply the recipe to a apology, Taken from Guy Winch's emotional toolkit. The ingredients are actually saying what happened including the words I'm sorry. Writing my own apology to my mom for this learning process I am going through with self-learning that is actually one of the ingredients is to empathize on the other persons' perspective and then finally a proposal of atonement and compensation which I showed her a nutritional curriculum I wanted to take for the fall.
The next morning I felt lighter and talked to my mom know about the activityand it's like she read it and showed support but still said the same fear-based ending afterward showing extreme disbelief in my possibilities for the future, which even with my epigenetic awareness still dealt damage just from person to person. Honestly I know I could thrive alone because I'm equipped with appropriate knowledge and courage. I admit to not knowing the specifics but I that goes to show how much I truly believe in myself at the same time.
As I listen to what on earth is happening, the podcast is covering material on neo feminist movement and how most women gravitate to the immasculated corporate man. How the first question in a conversation with a woman after the niceties asks "what do you do for fiat federal reserve slips" It's true my neighbor literally came into my space and asked me that and I wasn't even talking to her at all! But I understand her personal situation deeply and forgave her and forgave myself for putting myself in position to be spoken to in such ways because it is my responsibility.
Ultimately the state our parents are in is the reflection of society and all the lightworkers and people who are on the path to spirituality/soul-consciousness. Our families are there either to challenge us or to be taught and influenced because once we can get our families to know about the media, government, banking, and implement true care with great healthy practical meals(vegan hopefully, if not balance) juicing/blender up a creative cup of goodness.
Have been spending my time sungazing, brain games, applying sound health options. Now my freind came up with the idea of making a mix that can have these seven tones and whenever I engage with these concepts creativity just flows so I wish to build more on these concepts very enthusiastic because I know it works and is either being used for or against us!