Today was a wake-up call for me I was listening to Derek Rydall's podcast heart of gold soul of steel in the forest prepping a campfire tipi.
This podcast was telling me about my recent efforts, ego shame, and wanting to push through our limits. I literally rose up out of my seat and yelled yes I can!, yes I am willing! I have had cravings of chips lately, and specifically the cheese curl types. I follow all of these vegan blogs and look at how the decision to eat any animal products is like voting for animal cruelty. The decision to just quickly wolf down some chips has been tough.
Placing myself in a situation that allows for detox to occur, infared sauna this morning, deep sunbathes, and reiki. I just got my reiki level 3 certificate in Usui system and my teacher dropped off manuals and the certificate home delivered and my family was asking about it and I gave my mom a session and she passively aggressively insulted the practice while doing the session. I remained calm and looked at the correspondence in my behavior and observed the deep imprint. I really was happy to recieve support afterward while I was creating reiki manual PDFs and she was doing a self colonoscopy and seemed really effective especially after the reiki session, self colonoscopy/colonoscopies in general are extremely beneficial, so finished up the scan.
As I was walking downstairs to finish off this post I remembered the emergence journey facilitated by Derek Rydall that I started last year, I must admit that there is more effects by going through the emergence series. The grid that he spoke of all the spiritual warriors is a vision I share also, and maybe even obsess over. I was in a really clear state of mind the last few days and I was contemplating on the concept of "the shift" or people who start websites with names that sounds more like a fragmented sentence then a title names like the shift is happening, the great age of awakening of the dawn, quickly making a change, and I appreciate all the work they do I just feel as though most of these groups originate from a place of resistance or some discontented state of being. I just want people to bask in themselves, yes sometimes it takes effort to bask in your own greatness but don't be in that super aggressive we are awakening state of being because it's not sustainable honestly. Reiki on the other hand is a great tool and key, but for more serious issues there are tools that might match ones needs reiki is just the blade that suits me.
I was thinking about how reiki is better with the old quote less is more, because we have to realize it facilitates everything to move forward smoothly. I find most reiki teachers speak very obtusely attempting to capture the expansiveness of the practice. It's all about the journey of self especially the Usui system very gentle. I really felt the lineage connection strong today to as my teacher always praises his teacher he really loves him wish to meet him sometime as my reiki teacher was great as well helped push me to start the sight and be more productive.
I admit to having not kept my word with what I said I wanted or would do. I had to forgive myself because it was easy to get caught up in thorny thoughts. That was what I've done when I'be fell stagnant before with a laundry list of empty promises. I find it's the only way back to productivity for me just being more patient and gentle with myself. I really find myself less patient these days not as pensive, a little more impulsive.
I was really examining the transparency I would like to wield while teaching allowing for others to start forming their teaching style as they learn.
Thanks for the love,